140th post - memory

This is the 140th post, I don't think she will ever read this. So much has had happened between us I just stopped contacting you, so save both our sanity ba. Will still think about you from time to time and wonder how you are. I do pray and wish that you be fine and happy.

I guess sometimes when one care for a person it is too overwhelming or weird for him/she. And maybe there was suspicion of ulterior motives. But this is me, and I can say I never wanted to do anything 'bad' to you.

But than say nia ma. Don't believe also like tat lol. Wishing you all the best and maybe what left will only be memories. I wished we could still talk and be friends but I guess its not possible ba. ><

I'm sorry, tat's all I can say. But I always wish for you to be happy, for whatever that may worth

my best chapter

everytime such ends come, I think of this song cos
wat is an end without some 'Time of Your Life' by Greenday:

'Another turning point, a fork stuck in the road
Time grabs you by the wrist, directs you where to go
So make the best of this test, and don't ask why
It's not a question, but a lesson learned in time

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.

So take the photographs, and still frames in your mind
Hang it on a shelf in good health and good time
Tattoos of memories and dead skin on trial
For what it's worth it was worth all the while

It's something unpredictable, but in the end it's right.
I hope you had the time of your life.'

If time could turn back, and I can go through it again, even if I cannot change any part of it, I will gladly do so because it was the best time of my life. Ha ha she did complained I only wrote her a poem once only so here goes:

The heart aches,
head full of scenes,
how cruel fate can be,
how unpredictable life is.

left with memories,
the sweet possibilities,
can only look back smiling,
knowing it was great when it last,

letting go,
is inevitable at times,
no matter how bad it is,
cos you love that someone.

I love you,
such simple words,
can contain so much feelings,
it really is what makes us humans.

I love you and that is why I hope things will work out for you, no matter if our paths will meet again, may you be happy k.

-muacks- end of BiFi tag team :)

hullo again

"hello world", this was the first sentence we had to display using programming during my poly days as an IT student.

When I wonder will I get to see and know the world?

I realise me and FiFi is very similar in some ways, and yet very different in others. We really have been through alot. But it is really one great ride, even with its ups and downs. I guess that's the rhythm of life. Lol!

Is becoming an adult so tiring and demanding? All around me I hear complains of how work sucks, or how people around them sucks, so much stress etc. Is this what life is make of? Dolz

O well happy anni dear! Heh

O.o

there was once upon a time a boy, who grew up in dreams of fantasies, where strong suave heroes save the day from enemies of all shapes and sizes. It was a time when reality pass by like a flash, but the memories and dreams stay by.

'Neither a lofty degree of intelligence nor imagination nor both together go to the making of genius. Love, love, love, that is the soul of genius' - Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart

History is a good subject, because we have only the past to look back on. Looking back I am suddenly aware that I have changed alot to become the person I am now. Or rather to become the person I know I can be... and more. And reality is so so much more realistic, in which things do not happen, or most of the time it does'nt happen the way you want it to be.

Love can be a fleeting moment, and can disappear so very quickly. It like any other feelings have to be kindled and conjured, and yet unlike other feelings it is more difficult to grasp. Life too is fleeting, only a moment in history, and the reality of life is not exactly what dreams are made of. And I guess life is something that u have to go through with love, because they goes hand in hand.

And the boy dreams on, because dreams are things that are possible, because dreams are what one hopes to achieve, and it is something that is great to continue with. :D

help?

I am really really lost, moody and doomed. Lol

Really, don't have the energy to do anything, everyday wake up with runny nose and feeling weak. Can't even sleep properly - a case of insomnia + a dad who snores like a bullhorn. And my heart is like damn freaking torn or something, a very bad case of the blues.

How depressing. I think I have not felt this bad since - never?

And there is like totally no way out of this condition, which makes it worse...